Hi Everyone:

I have been doing alot of thinking lately! I guess alot of it is memories of last year as last year at this time I was having one of the last going away parties prior to Chemo.  I was about to start treatment plan #116 which Dr. Mangan had expertly prepared for me.  I was still packing my stomach wounds and as Tim Mcgraw would say thinking about the options.  I was scared like huge but excited just as well because for the first time in months I was going to one of the best of the best the place that if I was going to get well and Kick Cancer Fox Chase was the place I needed to be.  Not a moment to soon either with my last CAT Scan showing more of the little uglies in my abdomen I was not a happy camper.  Now this year I am returning for a Upper Lower GI, PET SCAN/CT, blood work and probably another Bone Marrow Biopsy.  Im hoping that theyll all be unremarkable or lets say wont tell me anything more then there is No Detectable Cancer.  Ill take whatever comes but Ill take that and run with it.  Last year I thought I was getting Leukemia for Christmas this year I think Im getting the best gift of all the news of another step closer to the cure REMISSION.  Ill be a little up tight from now until January 12, 2005 and somewhere between now and then the Survivor Guilt will kick in and as always I wont forget how lucky I am nor will I forget the sacrifices of my friends and chemosabees.  I keep them all close to my heart and in my prayers.  I would ask that you all pray for my friend Doug Jablonski as I have in the past.  He is continuing a valiant fight with cancer. Please also remember our Troops who are fighting for our freedom as we speak may are prayers also be with them.  Thank you all for your support and for everything all of you have done, whether you mowed our lawn, gave me a ride, held my hand you all made a difference and Im grateful for everything that has been done for me I would not have made it this far without the support and prayers. 

God Bless

Randy