19 December 04 Saturday

Saturday started naturally at 12:00 am but for me it was just one long Friday.  The neupogen was killing me last night or morning . I was in incredible pain all night WEHHH and the medication did not work your supposed to able to take two every 4 hours well by 3 hours I was in unbelievable a pain. Neupogen gives you bone pain and it felt like someone had crawled inside my spine and was trying to break out.  I have never experienced pain like this not even close not in the surgeries or anytime else. The only thing that ever came close was in the July when I had the bowel obstruction and I would get sick everynight like clockwork. This was different the pain came in waves it would subside ever so slightly and then come on extremely hard.  I can only imagine what those with bone cancer must feel. This is one of the few and far between times when I have actually really whined like Im doing now. But doesnot matter it was that bad and a lot worse...   Michelle literally had to hold my hand like a baby. I only have three more days left on this stuff and cant be done soon enough. To Michelle thanks for taking care of me I hope there are not many more nights like that.

Well I hope everyone has a great weekend maybe will have white Christmas this year?  After all the whining I just did I will soon step back into reality and once again count my blessing cause honestly it could be worse and I realize that.

Godbless

Randy

19 December 04  Saturday Update

Been toying with a good headache all day and watching the thermometer closely I have been having cold sweats at different times am not sure whats up Im not breaking a 100 degrees so thats good but Im wondering if Im on the way to it.  I called the On Call Doc at the Bone Marrow Unit cause Im not having a repeat of this morning with the pain.  The pain medication I have now is left over stuff from September as I never filled most of the stuff that was ever written dont like to take it unless its absolutely necessary.  I can only take two of these every four hours and as I said before they didnt last so Im calling for the good stuff and if I dont need it will just take up space in the cupboard.  Theres only one huge problem with this whole picture however I have a solution.  Docs cant call in narcotics over the phone.  Well at least your not walking out of the pharmacy with them unless you have a script.  Im not driving to Phila so I get a hold of my Doc here and they consult and luckily enough I get the script and I get what I need.  Im getting better at the game as time goes on. 

Well Im Off I Hope Everyone Has A Great Weekend

God Bless

Randy